Doubt

OH THE DOUBT.Where do you stuff it when it is too big to fit anywhere inconspicuously?So, suckiness is happening. My first reaction is a desperate need to have an answer to the questions. Then, I said, “Lord help me not to need answers.”This is the toughest spot I have ever found myself in. God has equipped me to be a problem solver, a leader, a go-getter, a warrior, a take-no-crap-from-nobody girl. He has also created me just as he created everyone else: in need of Him alone. So as I look around me, I am scrambling to find that sweet…

Meloncholy- My Man Got Laid Off Today. Big Sigh.

So many times when you go through tough times you hear people say really great encouraging words. You may even think them yourself. You may do a good job at keeping perspective. You may have great faith and confidence in what God has for you. And still, you can feel melancholy through it all. It’s good to remember that having strong faith in God’s plans for you doesn’t mean you have to be an annoying cheer leader or super bubbly all of the time. You don’t have to have an incessant fake smile on your face. You can be sad….

Storm by Lifehouse

how long have i been in this stormso overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless formwaters getting harder to treadwith these waves crashing over my head if i could just see youeverything would be alrightif i could see youthis darkness would turn into light and i will walk on waterand you will catch me if i falland i will get lost into your eyesI know everything will be alrightI know everything is alright i know you didn’t bring me out here to drownso why am i ten feet under and upside downbarely surviving has become my purposecause i’m so used to living…

Pictures of Happiness

Elijah and Samuel trying on hats. Fit like a glove, clearly. We had a race the entire trip to see if the girls could ever make it out of the bathrooms before the boys. The only time we thought we had won, we sat smug and excited outside the bathrooms. About five minutes later, we realized the boys were in the store next to us doing this. Losers. I mean stupid kids. I mean weirdos. I mean..never mind. I have competition issues.OK, this doesn’t show up so much in the pictures, but the resemblance between the teeth on these two…

I Am

going to attempt to run three miles tomorrow. Some of you are thinking big deal. You people clearly don’t know my limits. You people clearly have not seen me run. It will not be pretty, but I am going to run for three miles. There is a chance I will die directly afterward. It has been swell. Good night and big balls.

NO pictures just yet

BUT here are a couple of tidbits from our trip: the drive there wasn’t as terrible as we thought it would be.the ride home was.Big Thunder Mountain was the favorite roller coaster of the weekend. Loved by even the smallest little Brewer.EVERYONE agreed Pirates was the best ride EV.ER.Mickey Mouse ice cream heads are from Jesus.Four year olds are still grumpy even in the happiest place on earth. Conversation recap between The Man and Sam Fisher (4) after eating ice cream-The Man: Sam, you have ice cream in your nose. How do you get ice cream IN your nose?Sam: Do…

Why I Like Mike #27

Right now we are in bed with our laptops on our…well, our laps after a long night of studying. He has taken a break to: google my name- he is clearly impressed by how many pages I take up.play hearts on his ‘puterand, check out The Pioneer Woman website. He is mine ladies. back off.

2011

My list of things that will change in the coming year seems so much smaller than usual. One year, The man and I rattled on for hours of all the things that would happen. I guess the only thing I can figure is I am focused. This year marks the beginning and end of a few major events. This year I will graduate AGAIN, but this time I will be a master. (If I only had a wand!!) My husband will become a paramedic/firefighter My husband will either lose his job, or he will keep it. Either way that’s a…

Mini Sermon- Jesus Shaves*

My mom is a pastor, so sometimes I find myself mimicking her. Other times, I find myself with my hand on my hip yelling at kids. Also a learned trait from that lady. Both are dangerous, and for neither am I qualified. Anyway, I was reading my Bible, and I wrote a little something that seems worth sharing. Let’s face it, I think everything I think is worth sharing. I try to filter for your benefit. Also, if I didn’t filter, I would never get anything done around here. I am reading through the psalms. Currently, I am on 96….

Maybe You Didn’t Know

*I do not love taking baths. I only take them when it kills me too much to put down the book I am reading. Then, I’ll stay in there ’til I am pruny. *When I was a kid, I wanted to have ten kids. Almost there. But, I only wanted boys. Girls were weird, and I had the coolest brothers ever. *I do not wish on shooting stars. I just don’t. *I was seven when God impressed upon me to become a teacher. *I wish I had more time to cook. I am pretty decent at it, and I completely…

Beauty. For Realz

Some people are attractive. Some people have a dynamic personality. Some people are pretty or handsome and simply pleasant to look at. Then there is Miss Layla Grace. She is beauty for realz. She is 8. Has feet nearly the same size as me. Has the height of many grown women. And she has the most attractive personality I have ever seen in a kid. She is the sort of kid who moves mountains with her faith. She is the sort of kid, who at four years of age, was found lying on the grocery store floor smooching a picture…

Sun Stand Still

This book I am reading is called Sun Stand Still, and it is written by a pastor by the name of Steven Furtick. Furtick, that’s fun to say. ALMOST as fun as Francisco. Anyway, he is challenging the crap out of my life right now. He says we need to have audacious faith. I love that word because it is an excellent throw back to my childhood. Here are a couple quotes: -If the size of your vision for your life isn’t intimidating to you, there’s a good chance it’s insulting to God. -[Just like the Israelites] There is an…